Saturday, September 29, 2007

Time to dream again

corner of my expo, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Feel like a queen of boredom is not the way I like to be.
There's is always a treasure to find if you search, a friend to play...
Maybe because I have a little flu, my head is full with grey clouds and shivers run over my body. My time to have fun is not there.

Take a warm bath, have a nice meal (pasta with bacon and cheese sauce, mmm...) and tomorrow will have raindrops on roses, polka dots and imagination again!

Sleep well under a warm blanket this night...

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Kingdom of boredom

Hoppies, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

We have some hop growing in our small garden. They are two female plants, one dark green and one light green. At the end of summer they make this bells.

I've used some to make sleep pillows, with lavender it gives you a good night's rest. But a glass of home brew beer would do the trick even better, if I knew how to make it...

And I must admit it attracts some strange insects to it.
I'm feeling really bored these days, maybe that's why.

Love and blessings from the Queen of Boredom.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Bag Lady

Bag Lady, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

One of my secret fears is to have to live like a homeless bag lady.

I can't even imagine myself living out a backpack for more than two weeks. My home is my shelter, my safe haven, my hiding cave.

This bag I've made from fabric scraps given to me by a sweet neighbor. I love to recycle and have a new bag once in a while.
My friend Yoeke does read Lady's bags, you can learn a lot of yourself by the things you drag around. (

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Earth Path

Earth Path workshop, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Last weekend I was in sunny Amsterdam, for a Reclaiming workshop.
Had a great time, very inspiring and fun. I love to listen to Starhawk, she knows so much about spirituality and nature.And tells great stories from her political/magical activism. Of course we talked a lot about the state of the earth. And how we can be earth healers, instead of destroyers.

And learned things about the powers of toadstools in nature. My love for them turned out to be more then just a romantic fairytale creature :-) They can be very helpful in cleaning diluted soil and lots of other things.

We did an observation exercise in a beautiful canal house garden. I got dazzled by the beauty and fragile patience from the spider's and their webs.
Admiration for their patterns and durability.
website from the garden:

I loved the trance we did, everything is interconnected, everything moves in cycles...

Saturday evening I spend in the Vondelpark with some dear coven members, and loved to stay at my friend Saskia's house. She is so sweet and a true activist.

For my ever lasting insecurity I've taken home a very good way to deal with this; if your not sure; act as if !

More websites;

Monday, September 10, 2007

Toadstool and house love

toadstools love, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Still dreaming about the wood house...

I have been making some embroidery lately, little houses with roots. Maybe I need more grounding in this time of my life?
The idea that houses have roots is something I want to figure out for myself. And I wonder in what way I will see rooted houses back in my artworks.
Making art is no straight line to me, I meander around.
If things really are important to my soul they come again and again in the curves of the river I'll follow.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Dream House

Huuske, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

This house is for sale, Paul and I looked at it today and fell in love with it.
It is so cute and has small rooms, like a fairytale house.

These houses were build as temporary houses in the 1950's. Today they have not lost their charm. The surroundings are so great, the trees, the birds. To me it's super cute and romantic.
Inside it has half the space we now have. My studio would be so tiny and in the whole house storage space will be a real challenge. But the outdoor space is magical .We looked for houses like this before but they were already sold or far to expensive. Maybe this time....

19-11'07 Update after our visit inside: the garden was so beautiful and it really has the potential to be a magical house.But it would be way to expensive for us to bring this house to a nice state. And for my artworks I really had to rent a bigger studio. I have to find a pirates treasure to buy this, so I it will not be our new home after all.We will stay happy in our spacious city house with our small garden.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Magic love broom

Jump over the broom, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

My friends Yoeke and Jan jumping over the broom at their handfast ritual. My first time at a handfast ritual, it was so touching my heart and soul. And saw this feelings in the others to.
Yoeke told me afterwards she's got reactions from non-pagan friends like "O, is that what you do in a magic circle, that was just beautiful...". She, being her great self asked what they thought we we're doing. " Well strange things..."
And that's the way it is with pagans and witches. From the outside it may sound strange, but if you join in it only feels more natural. Pure Joy.

Visit Yoeke's website: