Fear

studio, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Tomorrow is the first day of the spring-fish show, today I'm trying to work in my studio. I'm so grateful about my cosy studio, and to be able to make this kind of work, have the time for it. But there is also much fear in me, it's so hard to believe in myself and my work. See myself as an artist and my work as art.
I have in me this little gnome that wants to hide in a toadstool and never wants to be seen.
But today I will listen to my fairy, that says : there is beauty and joy in you and your work, share and shine.

Shiny blessings, Elisa.

Air bubble

Fake cream puffs from the Efteling, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

I remember one of the firts things 'they' learned me about art was that's not about romance or nostalgia. Decoration is not desirable.
That was 25 years ago, and I liked Jeff Koons blown up kitsch objects, and cuckoo clocks.

Today I believe that 'cute' can be great art. These cream puffs are from the Efteling, and I just love them. Looking like kings and queens dancing until dawn.
Make them 3 meters high, and let them shine in a museum of modern art.

What I think about 'them' today? The art world has too much fried air.

I'll go sit in the sun and blow some air bubbles, enjoy your day !

Flower bulbs in the studio

Flower bulbs in progress :-), originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

I'm working on these now, and realize how much I love things that sprout. ( and polkadots ! )
All the greatness of everything is already in the seed.

Organic, round forms make me feel protected and comforted, they feel like home in a way.
I believe that Hundertwasser once said that the straight line is a crime. I don't know if it's true but to much straight lines feel like prison to me.

Let me walk on the little winding footpaths, with the possibility of a wonderful encounter around every corner. No straight lines needed for Mother Nature :-)

Walk in beauty today, love Elisa

Queensday

Me on the frontpage of the local paper today, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

In the local paper my picture, from yesterday's Queens day in Limburg. First I help with face-paint the children, they have a decorated-bike parade. Then we take a walk over the free-market. I bought a second hand book, ( Een zomerzotheid van Cissy van Marxveld. ) A girls book from 1927, I have never read before but it has to wait for a more quite day. The money for the book went to the world nature fund. So great from the girls to give the money away.

The plastic hat is from a lottery, and I really don't know if I like this picture. (smoking, spending, stupid hat)
And I'm definitely not an "Orange Babe". For me the monarchy is superfluous. I like democracy with a lot of room for anarchy and freedom of speech :-)
Tonight I'm having my little private Beltane celebration, with my lover. That beats Queens day and is a great time to clean our relationship of petty disharmony's.
Love and blessings to you all.

Spring fish

upcoming show, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

I'm busy as a bee preparing for this show, very happy bee.
It's the best time for me, working on my art, and surprise myself about what is coming to life.

My ideas are like bubbles, floating in me, sometimes I grab one.
In my creative-productive moods, the bubbles join together, and make new and unexpected forms.
Little presents for me :-)

Brightest Blessings.

Flowers

Flowers on the tree, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Yesterday, three blooming flowers left the circle, that made me sad but today my troubles seem far away.

I realise that nothing is stuck forever, life is always changing.
There is no need for me to try to change myself, thinking about how to be a better artist.
If I just do my work, life will change me.

Who is this flower above me, and what is the work of this God? I would know myself in all my parts.-Victor Anderson.

Brightest Blessings to my sisters.

Walk in the woods

kikker, originally uploaded by Tuttebel.

Since summer, I feel like I'm standing still, not moving fore ward. Feel like a little girl lost in a dark forest. Afraid of what's behind the trees.
In order to take the next step in my life, I tend to think I have to figure out the whole thing, my hole life after this step. And to do that, I have to know how the world works... So stupid, stepping into the unknown is the only thing I can do.
And as I walk my path, try to listen to my core. And pretend I'm not afraid alone in the woods...

Have a nice walk in the woods today !